2003-02-28

Mandarin , dialect, accent

Everywhere I go, I feel like an outsider -- I don't know that place, and I don't speak their language. Yeah, language , it's a big reason to make me feel that I don't belong to that place.

People in different regions of China speak different languages. We have mandarin as the standard spoken language of China, it's the official language, we use it on TV, radio, formal occasions ... and to communicate with people from different areas , but in daily lives, mandarin is not that widely used : in each area, we have our own local dialect. Like I live in Hangzhou, when talking with my family and other Hangzhou people, I usually speak Hangzhou dialect, and everyone does the same thing. Before entering the university , most people around me were native Hangzhounese, so most of the time, I spoke dialect rather than mandarin. At school, we used mandarin in the classroom, but outside classroom like during the break of the classes, we all spoke Hangzhou dialect. The schools made some rules like "Please speak mandarin.", but they didn't work in most cases -- we felt weird talking with Hangzhou people in mandarin. Now I'm in college, my classmates are from different parts of China, so it's natural to use mandarin , or we can't understand each other, but there're four students from Hangzhou in my class, and I still speak Hangzhou dialect with them. I like Hangzhou dialect , it's my real mother tongue, I started learning mandarin from my kindergarten. I think most Chinese people all like their local dialects. When staying in Hangzhou, I feel comfortable with what I hear, most people speak either Hangzhou dialect or mandarin -- two languages that I'm familiar with. But when going to different places, what I hear would be their local dialects and mandarin. I don't know why, but apart from Hangzhou dialect, I don't like any dialects, they all sound weird and not that nice. Partly because I'm not used to hearing other dialects, partly because I don't like the feeling of being an outsider. Take Shanghai dialect for instance, Shanghai is quite close to Hangzhou ( only 1.5 hours by train ) , I understand most Shanghai dialect, but I totally hate it, it seems Shanghai people love their dialect too much, they keep speaking Shanghai dialect to you even though they know you're not from Shanghai, like showing off their identities to outsiders, kinda proud.

Everywhere I go, I feel like an outsider, but Beijing is an exception. Though Beijing people speak Beijing dialect, it's pretty much the same like mandarin , as mandarin is based on the principal dialect spoken in and around Beijing. There's no such thing as language barrier, it's just nice that I understand them and they understand me, which is a good feeling, I don't feel anything like being rejected. Plus, there're all kinds of people living in Beijing -- people from different areas of China and people from different countries of the world, I feel I�m one of them, and nobody seems to treat me differently.

Speaking of mandarin, people from different areas of China speak with different accents. The way we speak mandarin is influenced by our local dialects. It's my first time to head for the north of China, the northern accents are quite different from the southern accents, people from north tend to curl their tongue a lot when speaking, and they put "er " at the end of some words ( people from south never do that). We usually can tell if someone is from north or south by the accent. During these five days stay, I've learnt quite a few Beijing accent, it's really fun to learn that. The Beijing guide said that I did a good job , and when talking with other Beijing people, they didn't believe I'm from Hangzhou.

Another interesting thing is there's one guy from Taiwan in my travel group. His accent is totally different from Beijing accent or mandarin, we called it guo yu. Taiwan accent is kinda popular all over China, I like this accent too. Many TV or radio hosts here are trying to imitate this accent, but most of them sound awful and fake. I think people ( esp. young people ) like Taiwan accent because of the influences of Taiwan pop culture, like pop music, movies, TV shows ... which are quite popular here. Personally, I'm more familiar with Taiwan pop culture than northern china's, and Taiwan is one of the places I really want to visit.

2003-02-27

Beijing Pictures

Hey, I'm back: back to Hangzhou, back to my room, back to my blog. Really miss my blog, I thought I could keep updating on the way, but I was wrong, Internet cafe is so hard to find, and I didn't have much time to write before 12 pm.(closing time). Stayed outside till 1 or 2 am, got up at 6:30 am every day, I had a good time in these five days.

Also took lots of pictures, enjoy taking pictures, it's a big part of travel. Like capturing anything new and interesting, I plan to go to more cities of China to take pictures. Today I'll show you the pictures I took in Beijing: Beijing Pictures

2003-02-26

I photograph them

I was in Beijing university this morning, walking around the campus , everything I saw was really nice. When passing through a cafeteria , there were several reporters preparing their video camera equipment . What are they doing ? That cafeteria must be special. Curious about it, I pulled out my camera instantly and started to take pictures of the cafeteria and those camera men. ( I like taking pictures of people who're photographing a lot) .
?Excuse me ? ? a girl stopped me.
?Yes ? " I took a look at that girl, holding a microphone, she seemed like a news reporter.
?Can I interview you ? ?She asked.
Interview ? Why ? I was confused.
"What do you think of yesterday's explosion." She said.
Explosion ? What explosion. I had no idea what she was talking about, ?Sorry , actually I'm not a student here ( I wish I was), I'm just...well,I'm a tourist."

"Oh, never mind." She gave me an embarrassed smile, and turned her eyes to other students passing by.
Very soon, another girl was stopped by her, and they started the real interview. My curiosity led me to stand by listening to their conversation.

And finally, I realized what they were talking about, they were talking about Bombs Explode at 2 Prominent Beijing Universities. I knew it ! It happened yesterday noon, just heard of this news from a taxi driver.

" Is it big news ? How did you know it ? " I asked the driver.
" Of course it's a big news, I heard of it from the radio."
" Not TV or newspaper ? "
"No TV report yet; there's a little piece of information in newspaper.

...
I recalled this conversation, hah , now I'm standing in front of the spot where the blast took place by accident ! No wonder they were videotaping the cafeteria !

I kept taking pictures, the pictures seemed more speical now. I didn't know what the scene was like yesterday ( There're lots of reports on the Internet about these two explosions at Beijing and Tsinghua university . Every time something like this happens , we've got more information from other countries' media. Anyway, this time, some of them kinda exaggerated of the panic ). From what I've seen today, I didn't feel anything wrong . The cafeteria was closed ( I thought they were doing decoration job) , the students seemed not that interested in it. I didn't see anyone slow down their steps when passing by, everything around was quiet.


I talked with that news reporter a little bit, she's from HongKong , few TV channels had reported this news, I guess ( I don't think they would allow foreign media in today ). It seemed that nobody intervened her interview. Don't they worry about how she reports? Curious about it, it'd be interesting to see her final report on TV.

They were doing their interview, I was photographing them, interesting, here are the pictures .


New
More pictures of Beijing university Tsinghua university -- Pictures





















2003-02-24

Why did I go to Beijing

Sorry I did't have much time to write ( an entry or some e-mails) the day I left Hangzhou. Why do I go to Beijing?Well, the reason is really simple-- because I want to travel.

I was planing to travel in the beginning of my winter vacation, but I haven't gone anywhere in this month. The vacation was finally over-- I went back to school 2 days ago (Feb.21st ), but I strongly felt that I wasn't in the mood for school yet -- I really wanted to go somewhere before the school.

Have you ever been to many places of China? Some people ask me this question sometimes. Well -- no, I haven't . When I was a little bit younger, my mom didn't allow me to go anywhere, she thought I was too small, ( actually I wasn't ), and I didn't ask her permission for travel either though I really wanted to, I knew if I went outside Hangzhou, she would be worry about me a lot, I didn't want to her worry about me. Now, I'm old enough to go anywhere , and I've been thinking about travel a lot, but I haven't done much travel. Why not ? Hmmm...travel around China is really easy, but I'm kinda aimless, I don't know where to go and how to get there; I want to find some friend traveling with me ( which seems really fun) but I couldn't find anyone ; I like staying at home too much , too lazy to take myself out...Well, those are stupid reasons. sometimes it's just hard for me to get something done , esp. to make up my mind to go somewhere-- I hate that.
So this time I really want to make a change. I went back to school on Feb.21, that afternoon, I went to a travel agency to see if they had any travel group leaving Hangzhou soon. I don't like travel agency that much, there's not much freedom traveling with a big group, but if I didn't choose traveling with some travel group, it would be impossible to get everything prepared in these couple of days. ( I just wanted to go somewhere as soon as possible, but had no idea where to go ).

So I was in a travel agency, willing to go anywhere. The staff there told me that they happend to have a travel group heading for Beijing, Beijing ? I've never been there. Okey, I want to go -- Done , I was in . ( I skip the first few days classes at school )

And the next day, I was in Beijing. ( Feb.22), the whole story is just as simple as that.
...

Long stories will come in a couple of days...


3 minutes
...only 3 minutes left, why does Beijing's internet cafe close so early !!! Why is finding a internet cafe in the street so difficult ??? Just because of that fire ? Stupid, stupid, stupid. ( Plus, it charges me 5 RMB per hour, hangzhou��s price is 2.5RMB - 3 RMB per hour )
A really short post : Coming to Beijing is a rash decision, I made it in a hour. The school has already started, I skip al the classes in school to take this trip, glad I did it. I love Beijing, and I've got lots of fun . I'll write more about it when I have time, as well as post some pictures.

2003-02-22

Gong Li -- Zhou Yu's Train

I watched Gong Li's new movie the other day, the title of the movie is Zhou Yu's Train ( Zhou Yu de huo che -- in Chinese )

Gong Li ( Chinese info, English info ) is probably the most famous Chinese actress , she used to team up with Zhang Yimou a lot , they've made some quite well known movies together , and both of them have achieved some international fame. Rumor says they had an affair, breaking up is the reason they don't work together anymore. ( Anyway, I believe the rumor.)

Go back to Zhou Yu's train (not the official English title yet ) , I like it, I thought I wouldn't : The plot is nothing special -- a love story between a woman and two men, sounds cliche, and I hate most love stories. This movie turns out to be pretty good though, I think it's a smart movie : set in modern times , the way they arrange the scenes is creative, the locations they choose are stunning , and the acting is good. I won't call it a great movie, it's nice enough. But I'm a little bit worried about the market of this movie : I went to the movies with my mom ( actually she wanted to see it ), a young couple sitting next to me fell asleep in the first 30 minutes ; when the movie was over, people around all started complain about how bad this movie is; my mom said she was totally lost -- it's a simple love story, but she didn't get it at all. I think the reason is because the director cut the scenes a lot, so the story is jumping from here to there. ( which I like), but most Chinese audiences get used to watch a whole straight story .

Sometimes, due to different tastes, a lousy movie in Chinese audiences' eyes can turn out to be popular in the oversea market , like Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon , ( most Chinese don't like this movie, neither do I ) . Oh, this year, Zhang Yimou made a similar movie called Hero , aiming to win an Oscar.( I bet he's gonna lose ) It's the most popular movie in china at the moment, though it's a big hit, many people don't like it very much. Speaking of Zhang Yimou, a question comes to my mind : Is he reallly that good ? His movies have done well in many film festivals, but does he win these awards by the movies themselves ? Most of his successful movies are about ancient China ( like the story of a man and his five wives ) or poor village life, they're bizarre, they're mysterious , which are easier to catch people's attention, every time he tries to shoot something modern , he fails. I'm not saying he's not a good director, I do think he's pretty good, but...well, movies are good windows, Chinese watch lots of foreign movies getting to know more about the outside world, but most Chinese movies showing overseas are about old China or kung fu movies, they're the pictures of the past, why not something new ? Something ordinary ? Like normal people's daily lives.

I really want to write more about it, but I don't have much time today, I'll talk more about Chinese movies in other posts.



Beijing
I'm in Beijing now. Kinda amazing, this afternoon, I was sitting in my room in hangzhou , but now I'm in an internet cafe of another city. The internet cafe will be close at 12 pm, only 15 minutes left, I'll try to go back here tomorrow and write more about this short trip. ( I'll stay in Beijing for 5 days )

( I'm trying to access Hotmail.com, but it doesn't work here. I guess I'll come to the same Internet cafe next few days, so if you e-mail me, please send the mail to leylopleylop@yahoo.com, thanks . )

2003-02-20

Dave Barry's blog and more...

Dave Barry's blog sticks around the homepage of blogger.com as "Blogs of Note "( the blogs they're noticed recently ), after reading it, I think it's a pretty boring blog. Well, I can't say it's totally boring, at least he writes five -- sometimes more than five words a day, then gives us a link probably taking us to explore some funny place.

Kinda disappointed, I was right about to leave his site with no intention of coming back again, I noticed there's a counter lying in the corner of his blog, curious about how many visitor he gets , I click that counter : Wow ! I was really surprised to see the number, know how many people visit his blog every day? 10 thousand ?! I can't believe it ! Such an ordinary blog can catch 10'000 people a day !

Ordinary, at best, that's what I think of his blog. If he was not Dave Barry , how many people would ever notice his blog ? Yeah, if an ordinary person wrote a blog like this , I bet he wouldn't get 50 visitors a day, and he would never ever be noticed by blogger.com , ranking NO.1 in Blogs of Note. It's not fair, but that's the way it is : Dave Barry is kinda famous, people are interested in what he's doing, no matter if his work is good or not . His blog is absolutely boring, it seems his heart isn't in it at all. But that's fine, people still keep coming -- because it's Dave Barry's blog.

There're tons of blogs on the Internet, some are famous, most are not -- just known by a circle of people ( which I like most ). Is the quality of a blog defined by its popularity? Definitely not, just because many people rush into some blog doesn't mean that blog is good. Too many times, the popularity is just hype, this blog is one of the examples : two month ago, very few people knew the existence of this blog ; one month later , it got much more visitors all of a sudden for some reason ; then , after another month, the number of visitor drops down and goes back to normal ( which I really like ). Did I ever change ? Did I write better one month ago ? Of course not, I haven't changed a bit, and I'm no worse than one month ago. The reason this blog got some attention last month was I happened to write what some people wanted to hear rather than it's an interesting blog. Also another question comes to mind : very few Chinese write blogs in English, which makes this blog sort of special, what if many Chinese have English blogs ? ( I wish they could). What if writing blog in English becomes a normal thing to Chinese people ? ( I think it will ) Well, I think the "special "isn't from "special" itself, but nothing else we could find, like Dashan is well-known in China because he can speak perfect Chinese, Cui jian is called " The Father of Chinese Rock " because few Chinese people were making rock music ahead of him...


Here's another blog called "I hate music ". The blogger Tanya says , "I hates music, all of it. The purpose of this weblog is a simple one: to detail, week on week, the failings and infinite wretchedness of the stuff, building into an encyclopaedia of musical badness ... Here, everything gets one star. "

Okay, well, I definitely don't hate music, I like her blog though : it's cool, people all say how much they like music, she's just opposite of everyone, which makes her stand out, and the way she writes is my type. But there's one thing I doubt about : Does she really hate music ? If she does hate music as much as she claims, how is she supposed to know so much about music ? Obviously, she listens to lots of music, and knows well about each band -- even the slightest things, how could she stand all these if music is her biggest enemy ? Does music never give her any pleasure ? Her blog is pretty famous now, and she has to maintain the image of " I hate music ", is it tiring ? I think it is, once we fall into some stereotype, it would be hard to escape, like Dave Barry has to be funny, Tanya has to hate music...

Well, that's all I want to say today, hate these stereotype , glad I'm not one of them -- I'm free and happy to write about anything, no matter how silly or ridiculous they are. And I really enjoy reading the ordinary blogs, as we're the same, and we're real.

2003-02-19

Expression

( I've moved the pictures here to speed up the loading )

Well, posting these pictures is the last thing I wanna do , because --
1. Obviously, those are horrible pictures which have nothing to do with camera skills or creativity . I don't want to be labled as the worst photographer on the net.
2. There's something wrong with my archives, so all old entries are posted in one page, if I add 18 more pictures, the loading speed will kill the blog.
3. I've got other stuff to write about which happen to be not that boring.

But still want to post them , because --
1. It took me one hour to take these pictures , been thinking about posting them for days, I don't want to waste them.
2. I was really bored at that time, so I put the camera in front of anyone passing by directly ( very close ), that's what I won't do in my normal state.
3. They are real people, their reactions to the camera are natural.
4. I could delete them anytime.

So here they are.






China in the red
China in the red is a show from PBS's frontline, Chuck recommended it in his blog a couple days ago, Mike thinks it's interesting too.

I've spent hours tonight on PBS site, well , it is an awesome show, absolutely worth watching , here's the comeplete program . It's not showing the full sides of China , I like it though, the whole show holds a fairly objective perspective reporting the problems China facing. After watching the show, I'm a little bit sad as what they're showing are all sad stories.

Aslo China and the Inerent is interesting.
( What makes this story more dramatic is right now I'm facing the problems this article mentioned : there're many problems with the proxy services I'm using , I have to change new ones every few hours, or I couldn't access my blog at all )

Still reading , I'll probabaly write more about it later ...

Anyway, I don't like " Birth of a Beijing Music Scene " , I don't think it's the real music sence in China, and the singers/bands listing there sure suck, especially that so called "The Father of Chinese Rock" , his music makes me sick.


( Note : Comments are back , great !)

2003-02-18

Neighbor

My neighbor died : she got cancer, and died last week , at the age of 39.
I was shocked hearing this news from my grandma, falling into a sad mood all of a sudden, I am almost too powerless to type right now.

She lives right downstairs, actually I don't know her that well though. Her family seems to have lots of money, they don't live here that often as they have another bigger house to stay in . But there's one thing makes me remember her well : I once went to their glasses store to buy to buy contact lenses . It was a big glasses store, at first I didn't know it's run by her and her husband, I was really surprised to see the couple were there ; we had a nice long conversation at that time, and I liked her . I've never seen her since then though , it's too bad I can't even remember what she looked like exactly , only some pieces stick in my mind : long curled hair, tall and thin, friendly smile ... That meeting was 2 years ago. The business of their stores was pretty good, they got the life ordinary people might be jealous of . Nobody would ever predict her life would end in two years . She got sick one year ago , her husband took her to Shanghai to get the best treatment in China, they've spent 600 thousand RMB ( 8 RMB = 1 US dollar ), but the doctors couldn't save her life, she passed away last week.


I feel sorry for her family, people all say she's a good wife and mother. This type of story makes me sad, and a little bit scared as well : What if someone in my family gets sick ? What if I get sick ? What if ...? Being bothered by such questions is sure stupid, but just can't help thinking of them sometimes.

Speaking of neighbor, I'm not familiar with my neighbors anymore.
When I was a kid, we lived in an old house , it seemed everybody knows everybody else well, the relationships between neighbors were close : people talked a lot : like in the evening, sitting outside doing nothing but chatting with neighbors till bedtime was a common recreation ; people played cards or or majiang (mahjong) together ; people trusted each other, leaving the doors open ...



Now we've moved in a typical Chinese apartment ( Picture ), and the relationships between neighbors are totally different, there're huge distances between people. We still give each other a nod or smile every time we meet , but that's all. As the speed of our lives is getting faster , people are getting kinda cold , we care about about our own business more rather than spending time staying with neighbors . And the doors are always closed, people don't trust each other anymore. ( Note : some old people still keep the old habit -- Picture )

Anyway, here's another story : once I was taking a walk with my mom downstairs, a pretty nice looking guy was smiling to us from 10 meters away.
"Who's he ? " I asked my mom after he passed by .
"Are you kidding , you don't know him ? He lives next door ! " My mom said.
"What?!" I was...well, it's hard to describe how surprised I was at that moment, think about this : a really good looking guy who has the same age as mine has been living right next door for 6 years, and I didn't know it at all !

2003-02-16

I want to protest!

Wow, the whole world is joining the anti-war demonstration : US, UK, Australia, Tokyo, Moscow, Thailand, India, Germany, Middle East countries ... demonstrators are everywhere, everywhere but China. Yes, China is not one of them, I can't believe it ! Such a huge worldwide protest, China is not one of them ! I'm against the war too , I want to protest !

I've never joined any demonstration, actually, I've only seen two protests in real life. I see protests from TV news every now and then -- pure fun: huge crowds, colorful banner, flags, funny puppets, weird outfits... what's more, people are happy. Well, I know the protests are supposed to be political and serious, it's not responsible to call demonstrators happy, but I have to admit that I do have such impression. See, only few people are getting really angry, but lots of people are putting big smiles on their faces. Sometimes, I wonder if they're celebrating something or protesting. In my eyes, all demonstrators are cool, Brendan mentioned he'd head for NJ a couple days ago, it must be interesting to be one of them .

I don't understand why China doesn't join the wave of demonstration this time ! If I were the leader of China, I'd definitely organize or approve some protests around China, it would be a great chance to show the world how democratic China is : Chinese people have the right to express their anger too. Plus, the crowds are harmless, who have nothing to do with something like against the goverment. It's just such a great chance, I can't believe they've missed it !

I'm also thinking about another question : it's the largest protest ever in many countries, suppose the demonstration like this is approved by the government, how many Chinese are willing to join the anti-war protest ? Do general Chinese people really care about what's going on out there ? Well, I don't the know the answers, (it would be interesting to conduct a survey among Chinese ), but Chinese public won't be as enthusiastic as people in other counties, that's for sure.

I'm the world news expert in my family , recently, my grandparents ask me the same questions a lot : Is the war on Iraq gonna happen ? Will the war relate to China ? My grandparents are almost illiterate, world news always confuse them, they have no idea where United States and Iraq are. They don't watch the world news unless they have something to do with China, so what they're nervous about this time is the war might come to China. My mom doesn't like world news either, she thinks local news relating to our daily life are more interesting and important. I guess many forty something Chinese might think the same way. My generation is totally different from them though, we were born in 1980s?-- the time China has opened its door to the world, young people care about and are influenced by the outside world more . I guess if the demonstration happened in China, the young generation would dominate the crowds, and I'd be definitely one of them . Yes, I want to protest ! Though actually I'm not that angry or anything, really curious about how it's like , right, I want to experience the feeling of being in a huge demonstration, I think it would be fun.


Words, but few actions
Kmethi post this link in comments, it's an article in Guardian asking the question of why there were no anti-war demonstrations in China . It's a pretty objective report , I agree on every points made there.

2003-02-15

Lantern Festival




Today is the Chinese Lantern Festival , it's a pretty traditional Chinese Festival , after Lantern Festival, Spring Festival is eventually over, here's a little bit info found somewhere on the Internet :

"The 15th day of the 1st lunar month is the Chinese Lantern Festival because the first lunar month is called yuan-month and in the ancient times people called night Xiao. The 15th day is the first night to see a full moon. So the day is also called Yuan Xiao Festival in China.According to the Chinese tradition, at the very beginning of a new year, when there is a bright full moon hanging in the sky, there should be thousands of colorful lanterns hung out for people to appreciate. At this time, people will try to solve the puzzles on the lanterns and eat yuanxiao (glutinous rice ball) and get all their families united in the joyful atmosphere.

Today, the displaying of lanterns is still a big event on the 15th day of the first lunar month throughout China. People enjoy the brightly lit night.

Besides entertainment and beautiful lanterns, another important part of the Lantern Festival,or Yuanxiao Festival is eating small dumpling balls made of glutinous rice flour. We call these balls Yuanxiao or Tangyuan. The fillings inside the dumplings or Yuansiao are either sweet or salty. Sweet fillings are made of sugar, Walnuts, sesame... The salty variety is filled with minced meat, vegetables or a mixture. "
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Well, I always wanted to go out in the evening of Lantern Festival when I was a kid, but I almost never made it -- living with my grandparents at that time, they didn't take me out that often. When getting a little bit older, I was kept in school, didn't have much time . Now, I've got plenty of free time, I don't know why, but I'm not interested in it anymore.

I wanted to go out tonight though, not for the festival itself, but for taking pictures. I figured it would be a great day to catch some interesting scenes. Plus, the fireworks were crazy , I couldn't get any peace staying at home, so I went out.

And I was right, tonight was a special night, I could have taken lots of great pictures, but I screwed up most of my pictures. You might have noticed that the pictures I posted here are all taken during the day, actually today is my first time to take pictures at night . I thought it would be easy , but my camera didin't listen to me at all : I had no idea how to set the camera to the right mode, and most pictures are as twisted as this one ( Pictures 1 )

It's frustrating , taking pictures drove me out , I couldn't come up with anything else to do. It's really crowded outside ( Picture 2 ) , walking among so many people was definitely not fun. But now that I was there, at least I should try to dig out what I came across, I did find quite a few interesting things, but it's too bad I wasn't able to capture them for my camera skills. Here're some Okay pictures : ( Well, I don't like them either )

A medicine store : ( Pictures 3 )
Some food : ( Picture 4 , Pictures 5 , Picture 6 , Picture 7 )
Professional photographer : ( Picture 8 )
Police : ( Picture 9 )

2003-02-14

Cleaners




Three cleaners were sitting on the floor to make brooms the other day. I rarely see cleaners making brooms in the street, so I took out my camera. I want to capture the images of different kinds of people , cleaners are one of them. But every time I pull out the camera, most cleaners freeze up or turn around . Those people are quite different though, it seems they were happy about what they were doing , which is great, as that's the way it should be.





These two people are couple. The other guy asked me to take some pictures for them. The husband agreed immediately, and put his arm around his wife's shoulder . But the wife was kind of shy, she was uncomfortable about her husband's arm. I captured this moment, and I like it.

2003-02-13

Hot Water Bottle

I was sleeping in water all night, damnit !
How come? Well, my hot water bottle was leaking ( I'm always using it in the winter ). I knew it the minute I went to bed, half of the sheet was covered with water, the blankets got wet as well. Damn, what should I do ? It was 3 in the morning : cold, dark, and quiet outside. I had already turned off the light and taken off my clothes, and my families were sleeping soundly in other rooms. Plus, I was really sleepy, it would be tough to turn on the light, put my clothes on, wake up my family, and make the bed. Lying on the bed, I was struggling with getting out of the bed or not. After three minutes serious consideration, my laziness won : I decided to stay there. Threw out the leaked hot water bag, I went on my journey of sleep.

Wait, how could you sleep when half of the bed was still wet ?? Right, but it in other words, the other half of the bed was not wet, what I needed to do was making use of the dry place. I bent my leg, my whole body was cramped in a little space.

Usually, I could fall asleep in five minutes, this time would be no exception, I thought : five minutes later, I would fall asleep, and forget everything -- I could hardly feel the bed was wet any more. But I wasn't that lucky, that's for sure : the water was soaking -- only one third space left , and I was extremely cold, falling asleep in five minutes was impossible.

Again, I thought about getting out of the bed, but another stupid thought came across my mind : Staying in bed means I keep insisting my right decision. If I really want to get out of the bed, I should have done it earlier. If I do it now, what I've tolerated would be in vain. . To respect the effort I've made, staying bed would be a wise decision.
So, I made it : after a couple of torturous hours, I fell sleep , finally.

Woke up the this morning, I got a bad headache , obviously, I've caught a cold -- the payment for my wise decision. And that's the end of my story.



Cuting a tree
To get rid of my headache, I went out to get some fresh air this afternoon. I happened to see them cuting a tree down, quite interesting , here're the pictures :
( NOte : I've moved the picture here to speed up the loading )

2003-02-11

High School

I was cleaning my room the other night; to my surprise, I found my high school diary. Wow, I've been keeping that old diary ! I Almost forgot I once did write a diary, it's an absolute treasure to me.

The diary started on May 10th, 1998, my second year in high school. Reading through it, I couldn't help laughing : I was so cute ! My thoughts were simple , immature , and a little bit rebellious ( in a funny way ). I wrote many slogans for mysef, and I was extremely serious about some little tiny things, daily life was surrounded by classmates, books , teachers, exams... my world was so limited, it's hard to believe I wrote all these stuff ! Though there is not much content in the diaries, reading them is fun ; they reminds me of my high school years.

I hate my high school ( I mean the school, not the life ), I hated it when I was there, I still hate it when looking it back , it was just a horrible, horrible plce. I don't like watching the movies about teenagers in high school, wait, not that I don't like watching, I am just ...just envious of their colorful lives. It's not fair, they're so happy, but my life was so dull !

My high school was one of the top schools in town, people usually called it 'prison', I did feel like I was in jail for those three years-- getting to school before 7:10 in the morning ( I got up at 5am), leaving school at 9 :30 in the evening , no weekends free ( we only got a half-day off every week ) , the summer/winter vacations were cut short , and lots of homework... It was a crazy , crazy time in my life. The school was torturing us, I totally hated it.

How come the school could be as cruel as that? Well, the pressure was from the national college entrance exam-- the exam every Chinese student has to take . We cannot afford to fail that exam , it decides whether we could enter college or not , and which school we could go to. This education system is so stupid, good to see that in recent years, China has been changing the educational policies. ( I envy the younger kids too, they're lucky to catch a better time and have a freer learning environment . It's too bad that I missed the better policies, I wish I hadn't been born so early!)

Go back to my diary. Since then, 5 years have passed . There's one thing I just realized -- I've changed a lot. I thought I didn't change that much , so little is happening to me : still living in the same city , staying with my family, everything around is pretty much the same, some even say I look like a high school student.

But I do change, not outside, but inside. My mind has been changing a lot: I know more now, and way I look at the world is totally different . My world was limited five years ago, it still is, but not as much as before. And I think I'm smarter and more thoughtful than before, cool.

Anway, there're two things gettting worse :
1. My handwriting : My handwriting is awful, surprised to see it was much , much better in the past.
2. My Chinese : My Chinese is getting worse and worse, esp. the vocabulary. ( I'll write more about it someday ). I wrote much better Chinese when I was younger.

Speaking of writing, there's one thing kinda interesting to me. I don't like writing in Chinese that much, writing is not my habit, my written Chinese is definitely worse than my peers. But I like writing in English , my words keep flowing when thinking in English, I couldn't do that when wrting in Chinese.

I'm glad I captured my high school life in a diary, it's boring but fun to read, it's fun to read something I�ve already forgotten or wouldn't think about in the same way . I wish I could have written more. And it's good that I've kept writing down my random thoughts in English today. I'm laughing at myself when reading the diary written five years ago, at that time, I thought I was mature and deep though. I see yesterday's me more clearly when looking back. Then what will I think of what I write today after five years? Will I laugh at myself too ? It must be interesting, I can't wait to see it...

2003-02-09

Me, Write, English ...

'Leylop, your English is pretty good.'
'Good? My English is good?? I've never thought in that way!'
'Um, you're modest.'
'No, it has nothing to do with modesty! I'm just being honest.'

Every time they say my English is good, I'd respond doubtfully. Well, my writing skill is not good, I know that.

Started writing two months ago, looking back to my first post, I could clearly remember the scene on that day, I was struggling to squeeze words, it took me one and half hours to finish a simple entry with 200 words -- writing in English was tough at that time . But I wanted to write because I've got something to say, 'what to write probably more important than how to write,' that's what I wrote on that day , and I still think in the same way.

Nine years ago, I began learning English in my junior middle school. At that time, English was just one of the required courses like math, physics, history... English classes were boring, surrounded by endless exams, I kept learning blindly and aimlessly. After 6 years , I eventually finished high school. What had I learnt ? Well, I've known 2000 or so words and passed tons of English tests smoothly, and that's all. I couldn't speak, I didn't understand people's conversation or movies in English, I had a hard time reading English newspaper or books.

Every Chinese college student is required to learn English in our first two years in college. My school gives us an English test in the beginning to divide all students into three different levels. I was in level 3 -- the students whose English were worst gathered in this bottom level, but my English wasn't that bad, it's not fair, I was disappointed , the classes were still that boring, and I skipped most English classes .

But life has been changed when in college. I used to be very busy in high school, the pressure of study almost drove me insane. Now, I've got lots of free time , I could do anything I wanna do . I like movies a lot, I watch lots of movies in English. I love music, most songs I listen to are in English. I'm hooked on Internet, spending much time on reading websites, listening to Internet radio , watching videos , chatting... and more than 80 percent of the information I get online is in English. Over time, my English has been improved unconsciously. I'm not learning English on purpose anymore, but my English does get better through doing what I like.

Writing in English is totally new for me. Before, the only time I wrote was in each test's writing section, I wrote to pass the exam, twice a year. I never expected that someday I would write an English blog. Oh, speaking of blog, I was wondering why only few Chinese write blogs in English, and most China blogs are written by westerners living in China. I had never taken the initiative to do anything all my life, but this time, I did. There're tons of Chinese whose English are much much better than mine, for instance, the students of English majors, and there're many interesting people out there too, it would be great if they started to write their own English blogs. I figure some people haven't heard of blog yet ( I've been trying to introduce my blog to people around me , but few of them know what blog is ), some might not have enough free time to write, and some might be worried about their writing skills.

When saying my English is not good, I mean what I'm able to write is still limited. I could express my views or explain my feelings clearly, but I'm not good at describing the details or tellling stories, not that I don't want to write about them, just have hard time writing something detailed or specific. Plus the words I'm using are so simple, the sentences are so short. I feel kinda like a kid writing diaries.

And I read too little. Believe it or not, besides text books or simple version books for students, I've read probably less than five English books , and I don't really know any author or literature stlye. Though I'm reading online every day, that's not enough, I need to read more books, or my English can't be improved. Got many new idea coming across my mind, but I'm not sure how to start putting them together. Recently, I strongly feel my writing skill is stuck with certain level, though write much faster than before, I'm not moving on.

Another important thing-- mistake. Making mistakes is inevitable to me, and I'm not worried about it as mistakes won't detract from the messages that much, but I have zero tolerance to the mistakes I find out . In most cases, I don't realize I've made mistakes or don't know where I'm wrong. Mike helps me a lot, he keeps correcting each entry's mistakes for me. It's great, after being corrected, my stupid mistakes are gone. I really like being corrected , it makes me write better.

Questions
I've been thinking about some questions for a while: when reading something written by non-native English speakers, do peope have more tolerances to their mistakes or grammar? Any limit of tolerances? Are there many differences between reading something written by native or non-native speakers? like the content and writing skill are both important to native English speaker writers , but to non-native writers, the content definitly rules).
I don't really know the answers as English is not my first language. And it's not easy to relate these questions to reading something in Chinese written by non-Chinese since few people are ding that.
Curious about the answers.

2003-02-08

New blog : China Photos

I've got a new blog now : China photos -- leylop's photos about China. Been thinking about how to present the pictures for a while, I can�t post too many pictures here, but really want to show them. Finally, I got the work done this morning creating a new blog mainly with pictures. Everything there has just started, I don't have many clues about how to manage it, just want to show what's it like here. It's not a perfect world, far from it ; it's not a rotten world either, not at all. I'll use my camera, my perspective to show the pictures here, both the good sides and the bad sides, sometimes, photos are more powerful than words.

So from now on, I'll focus on writing in this blog, and showing photos in that blog, the image of my world would be more full. I enjoy what I'm doing, and I'll try to do them better.


* Songs of the day
Deathcab For Cutie -- Why You'd Want to Live Here
Old 97's -- Shut the Window
CSN&Y - Bring You Down

2003-02-06

Taking Pictures



Bought the digital camera two weeks ago, haven't used any camera for years, since there wasn't an ounce fun in taking pictures or having my picture taken.

But now, my attitude has totally changed, almost going out to take pictures every day, I'm having lots of fun with my camera. Enjoying taking pictures, especially the pictures of ordinary people in the street, they're real and vivid. Though my camera skill and the qualities of the pictures still suck, there's one thing I'm pretty content with , it's quite easy for me to take pictures of Chinese people.

Usually, I don't ask people's permission for taking pictures. When seeing something or someone interesting, I just take out my camera and take pictures directly. If I asked for their permissions, the answers would be "Yes" or "No", I don't want to hear "No", so I figure the less I ask, the more pictures I could take. Plus, people act more natural without asking for permission.

I usually take 5 -10 pictures of the objects I'm interested in. My camera is pretty small, in most cases, people don't notice me at first, I try to avoid direct eye contact with them and get the pictures done as fast as possible, then run away before they notice me. Observing people's reaction through the screen of the camera, if they notice me, I can tell their changes through the screen. The different responses from different Chinese people are quite interesting, here they are:


1.Don't care
People don't care about my camera at all. They know I'm taking pictures of them, but continue doing what they were doing, as natural as could be -- that's what I want most.
( example : I took 10 or so pictures at that table, they were just keeping playing their game )

2.Smile
After noticing my camera, people start smiling in front of the camera. I like these pictures too, because the smiles like these are real and natural, not the pretended smile like making a pose. After I finish shooting, I smile back and say goodbye to them, the short contact is pretty nice.
( example : I was one street away from these two old men, but they smiled to me like I'm their friend ).

3.Curious
The concept of digital camera is still new to some Chinese, when seeing my camera which is different from the traditional ones, these people are curious about it, they want to know something like how it works , how much it costs, I usually start a conversation with them. I'm willing to stop and answer any questions from them, they make me feel like an expert , cool.
( example : this bicycle guy liked my camera a lot after I explained to him what is digital camera.Oh,he liked me too, and wanted me to meet his son.)


4.Not happy
Some people are not happy about being photographed . Some cover their faces with hands, some run away from me, some question me like what the hell you're doing , you don't have the right to take my pictures, some are mean to me and ask me to get away. Their responses are perfect understandable, I do make them uncomfortable. But I figure if I cared too much, I'd never get the chances to take good pictures, making some people not happy is inevitable. Some people feel guilty of taking pictures of people in the street, I'm almost zero self-conscious, and I don't feel guilty at all. Having no sense of shame is the key to take good pictures, I think.

( example : this old woman didn't like the camera)

5.Angry
Luckily, I haven't met many angry people, only two. One is from downstairs, every time he notices my camera, he yells at me and tries to stop me ( from taking pictures of others). The way I deal with the guy like that is I don't look at him or talk back, pretending he doesn't exist, he's definitely pissed off by that. Another angry one is a security guy in a mall. I know it's not allowed to take pictures inside of mall, but I wanted to get some pictures of people's shopping scenes. Unfortunately, the security guy noticed me , he thought I'm a spy from other malls, and wanted to take my camera away, it took me lots of effort to get away from him.
Anyway, I still keep taking pictures from the places where taking pictures is not allowed. It's fun to do something forbidden.
( example )

6.Taking pictures for me !
From time to time, I meet people willing to have their pictures taken . Some are simply amazed by the digital camera, they want nothing but to see how they look like in the screen of the camera, they're cute. Some ask me to take pictures and send the photos to them. ( I'm really glad to do it.). Some just like being photographed for nothing.
( example : this picture was taken in front of a restaurant )




Loading!!!
It seems that it takes quite a long time to load this page after I put the pictures in. I didn't realize that until Mike emailed me. Have you got the same problem to load ? If you have, please let me know.
I'm not sure how to solve this problem, just made some pictures smaller, hope it helps.




* Songs of the day
Longwave -- Best Kept Secret
Longwave -- something
Stereolab -- Ping Pong



2003-02-05



( one corner of a bookstore)


Another boring entry posted by a complete computer idiot ...

1.Loading Speed
I didn't realize the old page loaded pretty slowly until a couple days ago I couldn't open it at all. Before, I thought the problem was caused by the proxy , after changing the new template,the loading speed gets much faster, great.

2.Achieve
Chuck reminded me that I should put the old entries in archives
, yeah, I want to do that in this new template, but I couldn't find the old entries when choosing "show 10 days posts on main page", the archives are from 2003. Maybe there's something with the template HTML or setting, if you have any ideas how to fix it, please help me, I'd really appriciate it.


3.Pictures
Henry mentioned that if the page gets much larger, or if I link to pictures at a different host, it could slow down substantially. I'm thinking about it too, still not sure if posting the pictures here is a good idea or not. How to present the pictures is a big problem for me, enjoying taking pictures, esp.capturing the ordinary people in the street, and I want to show these pictures. But I'm a little bit tired of searching for places to upload pictures for free. Every day, I go to different websites to sign in as different users. I've already got more than 30 accounts in 2 weeks, sometimes I get confused by them. Yahoo (where I upload most of my pictures) is not bad, but it loads really slowly from time to time, many people would lose patience to wait for the pictures, I guess.

Oh, I'm also losing the pictures posted here. I don't know why, but the pictures I posted would eventually disappear strangely after a few hours ! It's annoying, I have to upload them again and again to keep them staying.

4.Links
I put all the links in this page instead of creating a new separate blog, it looks pretty good, thanks to Alex 's suggestion.( didn't know how to do that until two days ago, glad everything turned out to be easier than before). I want to add more links, if you have a link to suggest , please let me know, thanks !

5.And...
I'm a complete computer idiot, I want to be smarter on computer things.
If there's anything wrong you've found out or you have some suggestions, please please go ahead and tell me, I can take all of them, like being corrected or criticized, they make me get better, couldn't get any improvement without them.
Well, it's time to stop writing the boring stuffs like these, spending most time on the new look these couple of days, I'll write something new from the next entry...


*Songs of the day
The La's -- There She Goes
Damien Jurado and Gathered in Song -- Air Show Disaster
Franka Potente -- Believe ( Run Lola Run )




2003-02-03

I'll keep this look

Well, I think I've done all the work of this new template, like it much better than the previous one, I'll keep this new look.
Learning HMTL is interesting, didn't know much about it before, it's easier than I thought, great.

Adding some pictures in, but the qualities of the pictures are really bad, as the place uploading pictures requires every picture to be under 60k, need to find another place to upload pictures.

Also add the link page ( I'll be adding everyone I know ) and the guestbook (please feel free to leave messages there). Photo page will come soon.


The New Look
The blog looks kinda messy at the moment, I'm working on changing the template and put new stuffs in, I'll be back soon.


Template
There's something wrong with the old Template, I don't know why, but it took me 5 mintes to load the page. Picked this Template randomly, and the problem was gone. I'll use this skin for the time being until fix the problem or find a better one...

(Note: the blog has just eaten that picture again)

2003-02-02

Tang Xi

I went to Tang Xi today, everything there is really fascinating, I've got many interesting pictures to show.

Tang Xi is a small town near Hangzhou, 1.5 hours by bus. My grandparents once lived there, actually this is the town where I was born. 21 years ago, my mom was visiting my grandparents during the Spring Festival, she fell down some stairs, then I came to earth earlier than expected. When I was a little kid , I lived with my grandparents in that town, I had a happy time there.

Haven't been to Tang Xi for years as my parents have moved to Hangzhou to live with us , finally, I went back there today, full of exicitment and curiosity . I was exicited, excited to see the place where I spent the first 6 years of my life. I was curious, curious about the things I've never seen and the people I've never met in the city. Though Tang Xi belongs to Hangzhou area, it's totally different from Hangzhou. The town is not as developed as the city, it's more traditional, more Chinese . The people are not that rich, but they're nice and warm, kinda naive. They speak a local dialect I could understand but don't know how to say, I like the sound of that dialect though, it's so familiar, taking me back to my childhood.

Walking in the street of Tang Xi, the atmosphere of Chinese New Year is so strong. Yesterday I was in the street of Hangzhou to take some pictures. The street is quiet and empty, most stores were closed, and few people were in the street. In big cities, people usually stay at home during this time. But in Tang Xi, the streets were busy and crowded. Obviously, people were happy about the Spring Festival, you could tell that by the big smiles of their faces.

Anyway, one thing I think is quite interesting. When walking in the street of Tang Xi, I kinda stood out, lots of people stared at me, I've never got such attention (even the slightest ) in Hangzhou. But in that small town, almost everyone knows each other, I look different, and I was holding a camera to take pictures everywhere. I was like a tourist , a photographer , a journalist or something , cool.

Well, it's time to show pictures, the pictures of Tang Xi. This town is not model, just quite Chiense, far from western influences. I like these pictures, the pictures of ordinary Chinese people and their lives.

2003-02-01

Chinese Kids

I like taking pictures of kids, they're just so cute, and always nice to me. They're curious about my camera, talking to them is so easy. I simply ask them directly, " Hey,stand still...good...smile...yeah...perfect!" I love their smile, big big smiles on their small faces.The smiles are so warm,they make me truely happy.

I want to do a whole album about Chinese kids,already collected some ,really enjoy these pictures, couldn't wait to show you earlier.

Today is the first day of Chinese New Year,Google puts on a friendly face too.This year's Zodiac animal is sheep, and the charcter inside the "O" is fu which means good luck.

Now let's see the pictures of these happy Chineses kids.

And:
The Pictures of New Year Day's Street


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